Self-Destruction

After making love you would quickly say good-bye. 

You hurt me so… I often wonder why

I’m in love with you still.

 

All the lonely nights I couldn’t sleep…

all the promises you couldn’t keep.

I’ve fallen and I’m falling deeper

in love with you still.

 

All the happiness we used to share…

how can you say you no longer care

if I’m in love with you still?

 

Too many times I have forgiven you

for all those nights you beat me black and blue.

One thing I know for sure is true:

I’m in love with you still.

 

You raped me and you stole my pride.

Said you’d kill me if I left your side,

or even worse- you’d commit suicide.

So I’m loving you still.

 

All the pregnancies you made me kill.

Lied by saying they weren’t in God’s will.

To keep the peace I got on the Pill,

so you would love me still.

 

So many tears I cried so silently…

How can one man behave so violently?

And what’s my problem? I’ve got a Law Degree!

But I’m loving you still.

 

How can one man be so very cruel?

All my friends tell me I’m a fool

for loving you still.

 

I can’t just turn and walk away.

Too many kids… too many bills to pay.

My mom asks why and all I can say

is that I’m in love with you still.

 

Where is the man who used to wine and dine?

The one I was so proud to call all mine?

We’ll get it right, we’ll gain it back in time.

‘Cause I’m loving you still.

 

Things aren’t that bad, I’ve convinced myself.

At least you’re not leaving me for someone else.

So I’m loving you still.

 

Your buddies say I might as well be dead.

Wish they would get it in their heads:

things will improve once we are wed.

‘Cause I’m loving you still.

 

You didn’t mean to give me that black eye.

You didn’t mean it ’cause I saw you cry.

You were drunk- that was your alibi.

You know I’m gonna love you still.

 

What ever happened to my self-esteem?

I’ve grown accustomed to this sick routine.

You’re the most pitiful man I’ve ever seen.

But I’m in love with you still.

 

If you can identify with this woman in any way, it’s not too late to get help! Contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1 (800) 799-SAFE (7233) or log onto http://www.thehotline.org. Advocates are available 24/7. Anonymous and confidential.

911 Emergency

View of Twin Towers, 9/05/1998

Tuesday, September 11, 2001. New York City. It was business as usual as millions of Americans thought nothing of carrying out their normal morning routine. A single mother drops off her kids at day care and rushes to get to work on time. A husband kisses his wife goodbye and hops in a cab, headed towards the airport. A recent college grad is stuck in traffic, likely to miss her 9am interview across town at a prestigious firm at the World Trade Center. It’s not quite 8am and the city that never sleeps is hustling and bustling as usual. And then, less than an hour later, everyone’s life would change.

8:46 am- a plane has been hi-jacked and hits one of the Twin Towers. An outbreak of frenzy spreads like wildfire across the city. 9:02 am- a second plane hits the second tower. Both buildings are now in flames. Tower 1 burned approximately 56 minutes and Tower 2 burned for roughly 102 minutes. Time they took to fall: 12 seconds. In the blink of an eye, the future of the United States was changed forever.

Two thousand, nine hundred and seventy-six people died as a result of 9/11. The single mom, the husband, and the college grad were among the millions of New Yorkers who had a different fate on September 11th, 2001. And they lived to tell about it. They, along with their fellow American citizens, rallied together to stand as one United Nation against terrorism. They held candle-light vigils in memory of 9/11 victims. They held their loved ones closer that night. The following Sunday, Churches, synagogues, mosques, and temples across the country overflowed with tears of grief and gratitude. America had been attacked and the attack seemed to bring us all closer together.

Here were are now, on the eve of the 10 year anniversary of 9/11. Seems we’re back to business as usual once again. Have we forgotten about the care and concern we showed for one another just 10 years earlier? Have we forgotten what it means to work together and not take each passing day for granted? Sure, there are lots of News Specials commemorating the 10th Anniversary, but what happens when September 12th rolls around? Will we once again resort to our prideful prejudices towards those who are lighter, darker, fatter, thinner, richer, or poorer than us? Will we fill the Church this Sunday morning, and neglect the Lord the remainder of the week? Will politicians continue to blame the President for everything that’s wrong in the world, instead of working with him to make things right in our country? Will we remain content at operating in a consistent level of complacency while the world around us rotates on an axis of terror?

Ladies and gentlemen, we have an emergency. Not just because there is a “credible” terror threat for 9/11/11 (and there is one, by the way) but because our very existence is threatened by our own greedy, intolerant, and self-destructive behaviors. We’re outraged by the terroristic threats of foreigners but don’t do anything to fight against the terror of racism, classism, sexism, violence, and injustice that occurs in our own back yards.  That’s backwards. Hatred is growing and love is dying. Too many people are living beneath their God-given potential, working against their neighbor, and operating as though nothing is wrong. Gandhi once said,

“you must be the change you wish to see in the world.”

People, it’s time to change. Stop blaming others for the chaos you allow in your life. Stop waiting for someone else to fix the system- do something to fix yourself, your family, and your community. Stop pretending your dysfunction doesn’t exist. Stop behaving as though you are better than those of a different race, nationality, sexual orientation, gender, social class, religion, or any other dividing demographic. The fact that you need to put others down in order to elevate yourself is a tell-tale sign of your own inferiority complex. What will you do to change? How will you contribute to the success of our country, instead of contributing to its demise? Wake up, America! Your future is at stake. Time to call the paramedics… the Chief Surgeon is waiting… your heart is in need of a transplant.

Practically Yours,

~ The Practical Chick